You need to listen to your body. It has subtle (and sometimes not so subtle!) ways of getting your attention. I've lived back in NYC (born n raised in Bklyn, but haven't lived here in about eight years) now for about seven months. I moved back from San Francisco, where I'd been living for five and a half years or so. Before that, I was going to grad school at UNH. AnyHOO, I fear I should have stayed in SF, here's why....
NYC...
makes me itchy! I've had itchy skin since moving back and have retarded lil scars to prove it. I don't know why. Maybe it's something about the water? Maybe I need to switch soaps? I was using a more sensitive skin soap in SF? Maybe I'm just a nervous wreck?
makes me want a cigarette! Despite the fact that they cost like $25! (just kidding, a steal at about $12 for my American Spirit Yellows) It's the most nasty and ridiculous of habits and the yoga-bag-totin', healthy-dietin-havin' moi de SF would turn her nose up in disgust!
makes isolation a breeze! I need to get a social life. Seriously. I've never had such a total lack of like real social life. I have close family (sisters) and a smattering of chill peeps I consider good friends, but they don't like "know-me, know-me." I spend most of my free time smoking weed, which is my gnarliest habit of all. I thought I would not smoke as much in NYC b/c of the price and quality of pot but ya know what? NYC really
does have it all and getting pretty darn, good comparable to SF medical grade bud in NYC is a snap if you gots the right connects.
depresses me. Too few trees, no real nature, the urban jungle. I think I prefer the real jungle. I miss terribly how beautiful SF was, how delicious the food was, things that were just glorious. NYC help! I'm not finding your groove!
I'm sure I could go on but it's getting late and I do need to get my beauty rest. Another rainy night tonight. I'm putting all my delusions out there. I'm going to just write this blog and see what happens. Does anyone care? Will I find what I'm looking for? Will I survive my shite job? Will I move back to SF?
Find out on the next EXCITING installment of the grass is greener XOXO
